The Other Shoe
Every since regular life in Canada was shut down due to COVID_19 my regular levels of anxiety have basically dropped to nothing. I’ve been taking medication for over six months and this is the first time in a while that I feel like I could stop.
My form of anxiety lives in the “what ifs”. It lives in the unrealized future. My mind will conjure up negative results of decisions I haven’t even made yet. When it’s bad enough it’s paralyzing, it prevents me from actually taking action and moving forward. I second guess every action or thought. It’s incredibly frustrating.
I’ve heard my kind of anxiety described as constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop. I guess this pandemic is the other shoe.